And so the inner thoughts began as i sat through a teaching about the book of Jonah.
A road so forward that seems tiring but i have started it and i can not stop so i continued my journey.
Thinking about all the hardships i overcame i continue to follow the path ahead.
Out of nowhere there he stands infront of me my antagonist.
The one who stabbed me behind my back, the one i used to call friend, the one i relyed on but as he saw the opportunity my back was the perfect fit for his knife.
I swore to get my revenge on him and to never see him again but since he is standing infront of me i dont want to go there and the road is only a one way road. Its either forward or backward no in between, no side roads.
To continue my journey i must get past him but i didnt want to risk it so
I thought to my self i would rather go backward than go straight into my enemy's hand.
So I turned back preparing myself to go backwards, back to the life i once left. There was this stone that had something written on it with Big letters saying "Forgive Him" and I was like whatttt? How can God say this after i told Him my story? After i cried my eyes out for what this person did to me infront of Him? After i prayed endlessly for my chaos to stop? How can He ask me to forgive? This is absurd
I tried brushing of the written letters but they wouldnt come off. So I rolled them away with every effort that i had.
But there was another big one standing behind this one and it read "As I have Forgiven you." As soon as i read those i couldnt hold it in; tears came down falling, memories were being brought back of how i used to be the notorious one but God meddled.
How i sinned against Him but He still made His son pay the price so i could live.
How graciously He has led me to where i am now.
How His mercy and grace are the only thing sustaining my life right now.
How He loved the unlovebale and the undeserving.
How He came back for me even when He had enough.
How through His son's death, i get to live now following Him.
How what was done for me, I should also do for others.
It all came back. The joy of my salvation.
I cant brush it off even if i wanted to let alone roll it away. These are the words of life. The words of the one who gave life.
It didnt feel like this when i rolled the former one but with the latter i couldnt even think of rolling it let alone do it.
So here i am to say, even if its not in full i think i have the glimpse of it. How it felt for you, Jesus.
Coming to the people who do nothing but are committed to sinning.
Who are eager to go against Your word.
Even the prophet Jonah didnt want to go to the peoples of Nineveh, to those people whose actions are wicked because he knew you are a God of mercy and You will forgive them if they repent and come back from their ways.
But the Ultimate Jonah is Jesus Christ. Who came willingly to the people who turned their backs against Him. To the people Who didnt have any sense of respect let alone be obedient to Him.
It was all God's sovereign plan and He gave His life for those same people who persecuted Him, and not only them but for the world.
So its not easy living a Christian life but You have left us a foot step we could follow. Your footsteps. Your way.
May I never forget How I was forgiven and that i need to extend the forgiveness given to me.
Create in me a pure heart.
@standard_life_love
@standard_life_love
A road so forward that seems tiring but i have started it and i can not stop so i continued my journey.
Thinking about all the hardships i overcame i continue to follow the path ahead.
Out of nowhere there he stands infront of me my antagonist.
The one who stabbed me behind my back, the one i used to call friend, the one i relyed on but as he saw the opportunity my back was the perfect fit for his knife.
I swore to get my revenge on him and to never see him again but since he is standing infront of me i dont want to go there and the road is only a one way road. Its either forward or backward no in between, no side roads.
To continue my journey i must get past him but i didnt want to risk it so
I thought to my self i would rather go backward than go straight into my enemy's hand.
So I turned back preparing myself to go backwards, back to the life i once left. There was this stone that had something written on it with Big letters saying "Forgive Him" and I was like whatttt? How can God say this after i told Him my story? After i cried my eyes out for what this person did to me infront of Him? After i prayed endlessly for my chaos to stop? How can He ask me to forgive? This is absurd
I tried brushing of the written letters but they wouldnt come off. So I rolled them away with every effort that i had.
But there was another big one standing behind this one and it read "As I have Forgiven you." As soon as i read those i couldnt hold it in; tears came down falling, memories were being brought back of how i used to be the notorious one but God meddled.
How i sinned against Him but He still made His son pay the price so i could live.
How graciously He has led me to where i am now.
How His mercy and grace are the only thing sustaining my life right now.
How He loved the unlovebale and the undeserving.
How He came back for me even when He had enough.
How through His son's death, i get to live now following Him.
How what was done for me, I should also do for others.
It all came back. The joy of my salvation.
I cant brush it off even if i wanted to let alone roll it away. These are the words of life. The words of the one who gave life.
It didnt feel like this when i rolled the former one but with the latter i couldnt even think of rolling it let alone do it.
So here i am to say, even if its not in full i think i have the glimpse of it. How it felt for you, Jesus.
Coming to the people who do nothing but are committed to sinning.
Who are eager to go against Your word.
Even the prophet Jonah didnt want to go to the peoples of Nineveh, to those people whose actions are wicked because he knew you are a God of mercy and You will forgive them if they repent and come back from their ways.
But the Ultimate Jonah is Jesus Christ. Who came willingly to the people who turned their backs against Him. To the people Who didnt have any sense of respect let alone be obedient to Him.
It was all God's sovereign plan and He gave His life for those same people who persecuted Him, and not only them but for the world.
So its not easy living a Christian life but You have left us a foot step we could follow. Your footsteps. Your way.
May I never forget How I was forgiven and that i need to extend the forgiveness given to me.
Create in me a pure heart.
@standard_life_love
@standard_life_love